Birth Stories

Before Evan was born I hated hearing birth stories. It was really hard for me to hear what women went through to have a baby. Since I had Evan it hasn't bothered me to hear other mother's stories. It's definitely a mom thing, to compare birth stories and listen to one another's experience. It is so nice to have someone to confide in and relate to.

I have looked back and thought about my previous pregnancies and deliveries a lot lately. I have never written down exactly what happened with both of my experiences. Finally, these past few days, I've written about each pregnancy and delivery. It has been fun to look back at these memories.

I decided to post these stories here. Please don't feel obligated to read them unless you really want to. I understand that these are things that not everyone wants to hear or read. Also, they are long :) I just want them to be written somewhere for my kids and I to look back and read later.

After having these two experiences, and having 3 years to think about them, I have made the decision to (hopefully) have a VBAC. I have more confidence in myself now. I am better preparing myself for labor and delivery. I have wondered if my problem with Evan's delivery really was his big size and my small pelvis. I have reason to believe that I wasn't doing as I should when I was pushing during delivery. I think I was too scared, tense and unable to relax enough for Evan to come. I really think that my tension was working against me and delivering my baby successfully. This is my last chance to try a VBAC and I feel extremely blessed to have found a doctor who is willing to help me. I am excited to see how things turn out. There is a chance that my previous doctor was right and I really am to small to deliver a baby. I may end up having a C-section. I don't want to be disappointed if I do. My experience with my scheduled C-section for Makiah was great and I won't complain if that happens again. I just can't help but wonder if I can make this work. We will see :)

My birth stories are posted below this post, feel free to read... if you feel so inclined :)